The last time I wrote, I recently had my hormone levels checked (first time since prior to getting pregnant with the twins) and as I suspected, my levels were back at "post-menopausal levels." My FSH was around 50 but my estrogen was still in the normal range. Flash to three months later and my FSH had more than doubled, coming in at 110 and my estrogen had dropped to ZERO. It registered as undetectable. Which made sense to me because I had started feeling the effects of these hormonal changes. (hot flashes, night sweats and severe irritability). In fact, the irritability was so bad I was feeling like I couldn't stand being in my own skin! So I immediately went to Dr. Fu and she put me back on the herbs she was giving me from when I was trying to get pregnant. And let me tell you in a matter of a few days I felt SO much better. I have to take them three times a day and it really made a huge difference. I went from feeling like the Incredible Hulk on a bad day to little miss sunshine and flowers. It's a good thing, too. My poor husband was wondering what happened to his happy wife!
So here it is, months later and I am still on the herbs. I tried skipping a few doses here and there to see how things would go and Bam! I was right back to mega-bitch with a side of hot flashes (and apparently turning into Emeril LOL). So I now know I need to stay on the herbs three times a day without fail indefinitely. Not sure how long the symptoms are supposed to last. From what I've heard it's different for everyone. For some the symptoms will eventually dissipate and others they could last indefinitely. I have a feeling I'm part of the latter group, but time will tell. For now I'll just keep taking the herbs to ensure I remain sane!
While I am unbelievably grateful for having the twins, I can't help but feel a little bummed that I'm only 36 and my reproductive system is already caput. But, on the bright side I don't have to worry about turning into a fire-breathing monster in my 50s. I do think if I was younger or if I only had one baby I would probably try again via the same "all-in" approach I did to get pregnant with the twins, for I have no doubt it was the plethora of herbal concoctions and alternative therapies that momentarily got my body functioning again. The proof is that I'm back to full-blown POF. So I still 100% advocate at least trying to go that route if you're in the same unfortunate boat as I was being plagued with this condition. But you have to be dedicated and try it ALL. Balls to the wall, no holds barred, absolutely everything you possibly can. And, most importantly, never give up. Because miracles DO happen! Sometimes even two. <3
Sending oodles of love and positivity your way!
