May 30- The Art of Overachieving...x 2

Yesterday we had our first ultrasound! We were SO nervous!! It was the first time we would be able to SEE the baby... or, well, "blueberry" according to the What To Expect website. Hell, there could be a whole fruit salad in there and I'd be cool with it as long as it was healthy! 

So we got to the Dr.'s office and anxiously awaited our fate. It was fun taking the Hubs into the patient room with the table and stirrups. That was his first glimpse of what it's like being at a gyno appointment! We saw the stick part of the ultrasound machine, the part that goes inside, and I asked him if it was gonna be weird for him being in a room where another man sticks something up his wife's hoo-ha. He laughed and said maybe a little. Too funny!

When the Dr. came in he was all smiles as usual and was super friendly as always. It was the first time the Hubs got to meet him. The Dr. was being all jokey with us saying, "so you're not all that interested in seeing the ultrasound, right?" Of course knowing full well we were on pins and needles. He got right to it- flipped on the screen, stuck the wand part in me and said, "good luck!" Within a matter of seconds Dr. T. says, "You've got to be kidding me!" ????Huh???? He says again, " You've got to be kidding me! Unbelievable." The Hubs and I were both like, "What?!?," wondering what on earth was going on. Then he said the craziest thing I've ever heard. "Twins." What???? I laughed and said, "You're messing with me, right?" He said, "I'm not messing with you. It's twins." And with that he showed us the two little sacs on the screen. I looked back at my husband with what I can only imagine was a look of shock, excitement, and sheer terror, all at the same time. I felt like saying, but I didn't order two! LOL. The Dr. said he may want to write a medical journal article about me. That this is unreal. The fact that I went from having POST menopausal hormone levels, was told by four doctors that donor egg was most likely going to be my only option... I then spontaneously ovulated and got pregnant before I could even have a period... and then to find out it's twins! He is absolutely floored! I think it would be fantastic to be in a medical journal. I'd love to be a part of anything that could offer even more hope and inspiration to others with my condition!

So the babies are apparently fraternal twins. Which means not only happened to spontaneously ovulate... I did it TWICE. Two eggs and two different sperm. I mean, I wanted to prove the doctors wrong and all but this is a bit much! LOL. I am completely shocked beyond belief! I never even dreamed this would be a possibility! 

Needless to say we haven't been able to keep being pregnant a secret any longer. We had only told close family and friends (and of course all of you in the infertility world) but that was it. As of last night we did everything but put out a public broadcast announcement! We FB'd it and spilled the beans to everyone. We HAD to. One was hard enough keeping a secret, but TWO?? No way!

So... the next ultrasound is in two weeks. Since it was still so early we didn't get to hear the heartbeats but we were able to see the flutters! So next time we should be able to hear them. THEM. omg.... I am in total shock. Elated as all get out, but scared as hell! Where are they going to fit in me??? That's a whole lot of baby and not a lot of real estate! I won't lie, I am a bit terrified of carrying and delivering them... Sure people have done it many times before, but that doesn't make me feel any better! Yikes! 

Well this sure explains why I've been so damn hungry! LOL! This is certainly going to be one crazy journey. I'll definitely keep you updated.

In the meantime... NEVER LOSE HOPE!!!! Look at what can happen with a little positive thinking and perseverance! Keep hanging on to hope and pushing forward and your dreams can come true, too! <3

24 comments:

  1. HOLY CRAP! TWINS!?!? That is insane and amazing, I'm so happy for you! In my opinion, most docs are way too quick to dismiss us POF gals and tell us we need donor eggs. At 37 weeks pregnant with my own egg, I am SO GLAD I decided to give myself a few years before thinking about a donor.

    Congratulations! You weren't sure you'd ever get one baby and now you're going to have TWO! Amazing!!!

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    1. Did they see any eggs on the ultra sound when they diagnoses you with pof? What did you do differently over the last 2 yrs. Ive been diagnosed with pof for many years and been on hrt . I really want one last glimmee of hope beecause im getting older.

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  2. Yeah... I am in total shock! A bit freaked out, honestly. I mean, don't get me wrong I am elated, I am just a bit worried about carrying and delivering TWO babies. Holy crap. Whew.

    So happy you are preggers, too! Doctors don't know everything! Best wishes with your family and keep me posted!!!!!

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  3. I happened upon your blog tonight as I researched POF -- I too have received that AWFUL news - so I am excited at your story and will follow it closely. My to do list for Monday morning has call TCM dr first thing and make appt!!

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    1. Nicole,

      I am SO sorry to hear you are plagued with POF. I know how devastating that diagnosis can be. But after all I have been through I firmly believe it CAN be turned around. Best wishes to you and keep me posted on how things go!

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  4. Omgosh that's amazing! I found your blog via the fertile thoughts web site and am SO HAPPY I did! You give me so much hope! I went out and bought all of the herbs you used and am starting castor oil packs. I'm crossing my fingers for the same (or similar lol) results as you :) Thank you for the hope!!

    Bethany

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    1. Bethany,

      I cannot begin to tell you how happy it makes me that my story has given you hope. That is exactly what I want because I do believe POF can be turned around and that Doctors don't know everything. Wishing you the best and please keep me updated!!

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  5. God!!! Am so so happy for you. I was dx since when I was 18yrs, am 29 now and on my 2nd donor ivf ( d first failed). After this procedure, no matter what happens am going to have to try your herbs and much more. I pray it won't be too late for me.

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    1. I am so sorry to hear what you've been going through. With you being 29, you fortunately still have a lot of years left in your favor! Fingers and toes crossed that your donor IVF works for you. If not, don't lose hope. It may happen when you least expect it! Please keep me posted. <3

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  6. I was diagnosed with POF about 2years ago at the age of 35 . .needless to say I was devasted and cried for over two months everyday and became so depressed. I am now in a loving relationship with someone and we both want children. It was so hard telling him but hes been supportive. Ive been to three RE's and they all have given me the DE speech but I refuse to give up. My story is a bit more complicated with a history of endometriosis but I still believe it can happen for me and your story made me cry and gave me HOPE! The last RE told me that she couldn't say I had no eggs left that studies of woman who have died in their fifties or older once they cut open their ovaries they saw eggs in them so numbers aren't always correct. Im not giving up when the time comes for us to try.

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    1. Thank you for writing to me. I am so sorry to hear all you are going through. Ya know... my mom had terrible endometriosis and was told she could never have children...and here I am! Doctors know what they know and nothing more. Miracles happen ALL the time when doctors think it's not possible, so there is still hope for you! Also... scientists are discovering that they have been wrong about women having a finite amount of eggs... check this out!

      http://www.nature.com/news/egg-making-stem-cells-found-in-adult-ovaries-1.10121

      So hang in there and don't lose hope! And please keep me posted. Wishing you the best. <3

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  7. Congratulations!!!!! I'm so excited for you. This is so sweet!

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    1. Thanks girl, I still can't believe it!

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  8. Congratulations! Wow! I have POF as well. I also took BC pills for 15 years. Did you never take any HRT? I'm on the Vivelle Dot to replenish my estrogen. now. and next week I am returning to my acupuncturist again(after a 6 month hiatus). Last Fall I started cycling without the use of progesterone, (which was exciting) but had a horrible RE at the time that wouldn't test me, or sonogram me(just wanted to sell me an egg) Since then I have a new RE, that I really like. So who knows what will happen. Thanks for sharing your story.

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    1. Wendy,

      Thank you for writing to me. No, I didn't take any HRT. I had looked into it, but my TCM advised against it. The herbs she was giving me were to get my body to naturally start producing it's own estrogen so she didn't want me to take any synthetic forms of estrogen. Her line of thinking was that it would be the same as me taking birth control in that it wouldn't allow for my body to produce it's own hormones. Now, that's not to say I haven't heard of HRT working for others to jumpstart their body. I'm sure different things work for different people!

      I'm glad to hear you found an RE you really like. It seems good ones are hard to come by and having one that you like makes such a difference!

      Wishing you the best and keep me posted!!! <3

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  9. Saw your blog posted on a POF forum and I had to read it! First of all, congrats on your TWIN pregnancy!!! I also have POF (diagnosed at 28) and after reading some your posts, I feel like I could have written them. I also have a success story--my now 7 year old came from my supposedly broken reproductive system. I did acupuncture, I tried chinese medicine, I massaged my abdomen area, I ate very healthy, etc-- basically changed my way of life in hopes of becoming pregnant. Ironically, I became pregnant 9 months after going off birth control (I think you stated something similiar). No periods for 9 months--and then pregnant! I now also have twin girls from DE/IVF (2nd attempt worked). Though I have my girls (who I adore), POF is still a part of my life and always will be. I don't struggle with it as much, but I can still remember the painful diagnosis I received almost 8 years ago and the feelings that came with it.

    Hope to follow your blog and hear about your updates!!! Best wishes on your pregnancy!

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    1. Hope,

      Thank you for writing. I definitely think there is something to the whole being on b/c for a long time and it taking a while for the body to function properly again, even though doctors want to say there is no correlation. There are way too many stories out there that prove otherwise! I am happy to hear you were able to have children via donor egg. Especially that you had twins! I will definitely keep on updating (and am currently working on a book!)

      All the best, Cole

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  10. This is amazing! I am new to your blog, but started seeking alternatives to what western doctors have told me about 4 months ago. I have been receiving acupuncture treatment for 3 months now and all my menopausal symptoms have gone away (except for lack of period). I look forward to reading more of your blog to see the similarities.

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    1. Hi! If there is one thing I learned through all this, it's that western medicine isn't everything and doctors don't know it all! It sounds like you are on the right track with acupuncture. Once you've read through my blog, you'll have to share if you have been going through all the same things! I love hearing from others who have been going through similar issues because there is so much hope out there worth spreading!

      Please keep me updated on how things are going with you!

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  11. Congratulations! ! Very happy for you. When I was diagnosed they said I had no eggs . Was this the same for you?

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    1. Yes, my AMH was <0.16 which the Dr. told me means they were pretty much undetectable. Now, that doesn't mean you have ZERO eggs left. It just means there aren't enough for them to be detected. So I sought out every remedy I could find that has been known to increase egg quality/count and I think that is what got me to release TWO eggs when I finally did ovulate. All it takes is ONE GOOD EGG!!!

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  12. What a wonderful story, you must be extremely excited.
    It really is brilliant that you are able to share your story with others to bring them hope as well. There is a lot of treatment available now and lots of specialist clinics that can really help, but inspirational blogs like this really help people to know that they aren't alone.

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  13. Oh god you're killing me tonight! My husband keeps asking me if I'm ok lol twins!!!!!! How amazing and wonderful!!! You give me such hope :)

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  14. I needed to read this. I am 42 and was given an evaluaton of DOR 5 months ago. I have been doing the exact same program you were doing, since my RE tried to stimulate me for egg freezing and I didn't respond to the meds. I have been ovulating and seeing AF every month, but I don't have a partner so I don't have anyone to try with. I am thinking about using donor sperm if I can't get the dating situation together in the next few months. Your blog has given me a lot of reassurance tho. God has blessed you!!!! Thank you so much.

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